Am I being to hard on myself?

Last night I was walking back to my apt when all of a sudden I felt very odd. Not emergency odd but still very weird. The best I can explain it was like being on a strong dose of Nyquil but not reaping any of the sleep benefits of the cold meds. At least that's the best comparison I can think of, I've never been awake under the influence of Nyquil to know for sure - though I wish I had some last night to knock me out. I was dizzy, anxious feeling, and my brain felt confused and foggy. If I laid down I just felt blah, but standing was then the symptoms would come on. It's been suggested that may it some relation to hyper-hypo glycemia - but I think my sinuses may have been involved as well as I did have congestion I could feel move around my head when I changed positions. Either way it would have been awesome to sleep it off, but nope, insomnia again, only this time I couldn't work through it because the computer screen wasn't friendly to my situation. So I put on Fantasia (yup the old disney classic original), in the hopes that the music would lull me to sleep - no luck...did you know they take a intermission break in the middle on the dvd? I didn't know that, usually I'm out sometime in the middle of the Rite of Spring (the one with the dinos).

Anyway, of course then I have trouble waking up in the morning because I only fell asleep a short while ago. Needless to say I miss my morning cardio in order to be on time for my first client of the day. I would normally feel guilty about this because I view what I do as my job (since...well..it is!), fortunately I could go a little easier on me because I am walking 2 very large dogs during this holiday while their owners are on a really cool trip to Africa. They sent me this cool pic of a group of cheetahs!

But after walking the dogs, I came back had meal 2 of turkey and broccoli and piled myself into bed. This is when the guilt goes away - I know I'm not being lazy when my eyes want to close and I lay down and pass out almost immediately and wake up feeling like I woke up correctly this time.

I think sometimes I go and go and go and don't realize that my energy is getting really low until it hits rock bottom. My body actually has to force me to power down sometimes, now if only I could get it to have better timing - night time dammit!